I was on a roll discussing steadfastness and confidence..... and all of a sudden POOOOF! It all deleted with a accidentel touch of button as I hammered away on the keyboard. I still don't know how or why it happended. I don't know my keyboard well enough. Often I'm making things pop up or disapear when I have no intention of it. Darn it...and my typing didn't auto save. Shoot. I have to remember to hit the SAVE NOW button more frequently.
Anyhow....guess I have to put into practice steadfastness and start typing all over again.
So as I was saying, before I was so rudely deleted....
For the past few weeks I have been mulling over in my mind three words.
CONFIDENCE
CERTAINITY
FAITH
I have been comparing and contrasting the meaning of these three words and pondering how they apply to my life.
It all started with a teaching on a Tony Robison cd that I was listening to on my way to work. I arrived at work just in time to step out of the car and stand in the parking lot with my car door opened and listened to Tony as he talked me through this demonstration of how to experience Certainity in your mind and body.
Don't just read the following. Stand up and participate now.
Try this:
Stand up with your eyes closed and think of something that you want to come about in your life. Now think in terms of "I hope this ______________ happens." "I really hope for this _________." I hope, I hope. I hope. I am full of hope. Think hope about this thing you desire.
As you are HOPING for this, stop and think about your body stance. How are you legs standing? What about your knees? Your head and neck? Your shoulders? How in the intensity in your hands and arms? The angle of your backbone? Take time to study your body language.
Now, Part 2
Okay, now.... while thinking of this thing that you want..... say to yourself negative things about the desire. Such as "Oh, I know this will never happen." "I can never have that." "It's just a wishful thought." ect.
Now take notice of how your body language changes? Did your shoulders drop? Did your knees change position? Do you feel more slack in your spine? Does your head feel heavier? Experience what your body is telling you now in how it responds to hopelessness.
Now, Part 3
Think of this desired thing and say to yourself, "I am certain that I have _________." "I am absolutely certain of this." "There is not a shadow of a doubt that ____________ is mine." I am completely certain. Certain. Certain. Certain. I am so sure and certain of this. It is in my life.
How did your body change it's language in response to CERTAINITY. Did your shoulders lift? Is your back straight and stiffer? Is you head held higher? Are your knees more locked in an upright stance?
The body feels hope, despair and certainity. Practice thinking thoughts with certainity. Get so use to that feeling of certainity that your body warns you when you are thinking of your desires with les than certainity.
When I went to walk David through the experiment, I kept saying "confidence" instead of certainity. Confidence was stuck in my head.
(Shewwwww.... good thang I saved my draft..... a good part of it deleted on me again. Uggghhh...this keep board keeps me steadfastly retyping. But I will get my point across! )
As I was saying, I meant to walk David through a Certainity experiement, but I walked him through the same process but it was a confidence experiment. But does it matter? What really is the difference between confidence and certainity?
And then I ask myself, why have I made the word "Faith" so obsolete in my vocabulary. I notice that I use words like certainity and confidence, in place of faith. I asked myself why I done this. Faith is still a legitamate word. For some reason its become obscure in my dilect.
con·fi·dence
[kon-fi-duhns] Show IPA
noun
1.
full trust; belief in the powers, trustworthiness, or reliability of a person or thing: We have every confidence in their ability to succeed.
2.
belief in oneself and one's powers or abilities; self-confidence; self-reliance; assurance: His lack of confidence defeated him.
cer·tain
[sur-tn] Show IPA
adjective
1.
free from doubt or reservation; confident; sure: I am certain he will come.
2.
destined; sure to happen (usually followed by an infinitive): He is certain to be there.
3.
inevitable; bound to come: They realized then that war was certain.
4.
established as true or sure; unquestionable; indisputable: It is certain that he tried.
5.
fixed; agreed upon; settled: on a certain day; for a certain amount.
faith
[feyth] Show IPA
noun
1.
confidence or trust in a person or thing: faith in another's ability.
2.
belief that is not based on proof: He had faith that the hypothesis would be substantiated by fact.
3.
belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings of religion: the firm faith of the Pilgrims.
4.
belief in anything, as a code of ethics, standards of merit, etc.: to be of the same faith with someone concerning honesty
So the lessson of the day, stay steadfast to believe we are destined to get our heart's desire (certainity) Believe in the power of ourselves (confidence) and of God (faith) to make our heart's desires manifest.
Well, now I have to go put endurance and perservance into practice. It's 9pm and I am tired, but the whole day has passed by without me leaving the apartment. I feel no motiviation to exercise for a half-hour, but I will get on the floor and do some movement while watching tv. My last couple days of exercise were out dancin it up! I'd rather be dancing, but sit-ups and leg lifts for tonight.
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