Ride with no regrets

It's never too late to be what you might have been.  I'm not sure what I might 'have been' or what I am suppose to be.  I know that I focus on my bedroom  wall that states "Life is not about finding yourself.  It's about creating yourself."  and I ask  "God what are you and I going to create today? "

My intention, as I stated at the introduction of this Power of Three blog,  is to be the best I can be (or at least better than I have ever been) spiritually, emotional, physically, mentally, emotionally by the time I turn 50.
I have this stirring in me that I should be bold and ride my bike out to Montana.  This morning I sense that there is a reason that I haven't been hired for a new job in Montana just yet.  Perhaps I need to make a soul journey on my bike as I sojourn to the West.
I have been pondering the idea.... the pros and cons.....the precautions...and went to bed praying what would be the right thing for me.  I  woke with this in my heart; to do it and write as I go.
I'm reading the book "Wild" by Cheryl Strayer.  She legally renamed herself Strayer because when she got a divorce she could change her name. She had strayed from her husband so she went with Strayer.  Strayer travels with a big backpack across the Pacific Coast Trail. A woman alone on a path to find herself as she walks  away from past hurts.  The subtitle is From Lost to Found on the Pacific Coast Trail.  I don't feel lost.  I'm right here, in Pennsylvania.  Determining to not regret the past and not fret the future. Finding is to dig, to search... to find what you once had but don't know where it is placed now.  That's not what I feel the need to do or be.  I feel the need to create myself.  Who I want to be for this chapter in my life when  I turn 50.  Perhaps with 2100 plus miles to  ride with wind in my hair, I will create her.
As I write this, the course in Gavin Degraw's song, "I don't wanna be" came to me.

I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me



As I ponder riding my bike out west  and I run the idea past people.  I've got a few "go for it" and I've gotten "You're crazy!".  Yesterday I stumbled... haha "stumbled"- isn't it interesting how we stumble across things when we need to find something that we weren't looking for at the moment?   I stumbled across a website  Purposefairy.com .   There is a research article that states most elderly people don't regret things that they did.  They regret what they didn't do.  They regret that they didn't have the courage to do a certain thing. Riding this bike out there will take courage...boldness...'balls'.  When I learned to ride, my teacher, Greg said to me, "The only thing is takes to ride a motorcycle is balls.  And you have them."
Hummm... maybe I don't even need to create.. Not struggle with it anyway. Just be.  Just be who I been trying to be lately.  Which is a peace-filled, loving, finding gratitude-in-everything kind of person. 
Just think of me and have peace of mind.  Just think of me riding my bike to a new direction in my life.
Lynne gave me a plaque:  Change of any sort takes courage.  This is change.  Riding there is the epidomy of doing it courageously.
   Here is to  creating the next chapter.  Here is to jumping on my bike and boldly going where I have never gone before.  Here is to a life without regrets.
Last time I traveled to Montana and I was in the Denver airport killing time....  I don't like the sounds of that "killing time".  That phrase needs to go away.  Anyway, I was in the airport making use of my waiting time....doing it an a manner that a female does best- shopping.  I came across a certain brand of  necklace with a pendant that had a thoughtful comment on it.  I loved every one of those necklaces and I wanted to buy them all. Of course, in counting the cost I couldn't splurge like that. So I took a moment and ask, "Which one speaks to me the most?" and when I put a certain pendant in my hand, instantly my eyes started to tear up and my heart felt overwhelmed with its message.  Wow...I really responded to this pendant.
  The pendant says, "Live life with no regrets."
Live to ride.  Ride to Live.
 I will ride with no regret!
Selah.

June 5 Recap

Yay Its a brand new day. The sun is shining. and so am I, lol.
I just got home from the gym. I did an hour long power pump class. Crazy intense. My muscles are gonna be HUGE.

I tracked all of my food. And drank plenty of water. All around. today was a good day :)

June 4 Recap.

Today was a great day. I stayed on track. I snacked a little bit but didn't feel guilty about any of it. I'm not sure I can ever just eat 3 meals. For my workout i went to the gym and did the most intense step class I've ever attended. How are you girls doing?


 Breakfast-


2 eggs
mushrooms
onions
garlic
spinach
cherry tomatoes
Italian seasoning
Braggs


Lunch-

 2 slices of bread
Natural Chocolate Peanut Butter
Honey
Apple





Dinner-

Beanless Chili-
corn
celery
potatos
beef
tomatos
flaky bisquits


Snacks-
10 circus peanuts
pb, raisins, apple
1 serving pb puffins.

Say Goodbye to this girl

Yay! Its a brand new day and I'll be leaving for the gym in about 20 minutes!! I'm so excited to see all the promises my skinny life will hold.

say bye bye to this girl....

Weight War Revolution

Hi my name is Shanna. I am 24. I weight 357. And I'm starting fresh. Everything is fresh and new. I've decided whether it takes 1 year, 2 years, 10 years, or more. I WILL REACH MY GOAL! I have a gym membership and starting tomorrow morning at 830am I will be going every Monday-Friday until further notice. I am going to schedule all of my workouts and I will stick to it. I will track my calorie intake on sparkpeople.com Well that's all I really have to say for tonight but I will check back tomorrow with my gym success check-in.

 oh ps. water. lots and lots of water!!!

                                                       The last BEFORE picture...EVER!

Happy June First!!!

I dont have much to say at this particular moment. I'm about to eat lunch. But I just wanted to hollar and say I'm still with you guys. -Shanna

It was the best of times. It was the worst of times.

May 2012. Fullness of Joy. The deepest of Grief. Witnessing a daughter get married is truly one of the proudest moments for a mother. It is part of the full circle of life. Having lost my father, being "Daddy's Baby Girl", is truly one of the saddest moments of life. It is part of the full circle of life. My vision page for May was about being Cheerful. Smiling at myself in the mirror. Giving smiles as a gift to the world. A quote on my page, " Cheerfulness keeps up a kind of daylight in the mind, and fills it with a steady and perpetual serenity." Ahhh... these pages were so prophetic. It certainly was a month that needed serenity. I spent much time chewing on a book entitled "Happiness Now!" It published by Hay House. I bought the book a couple years ago, but it wasn't in a place to appreciate it and I shelfed it. Some highlights that I gathered from the book this month: -You cannot be happy and guilty. Stop feeling guilty. Practice Acceptance. God does not condemn us, because he does not judge us. He just loves us. You either love or judge. I learned from Deepok Chopra to make my mantra this; "I practice non-judgment." That allows me room in my mind and heart to 'dismiss judgement and invite love' ( a little mantra that I came up with this month). I stop judging myself (my weight, etc). I love myself unconditionally. I stop judging others and their intentions and invite love into the situtation. The author of Happiness Now!, Robert Holden, created a course called The Happiness Project. His quote, "Whenever you are not wholly joyous, it is because you have reacted with a lack of love to one of God's creations." (Often for my that applies to a reaction to myself!) Fear preys. Love prays. There is so much to share from this book- for my own reminders and I shall do just that with more blogging. I think of my favorite scripture. 2 Corinthians 7:4 Paul says, " I am greatly encouraged! In all my troubles my joy knows no bounds." Paul reminds me that my joy is not based on the weight on the scales, or the money in my bank account, or the pile of bills, or how someone interacts with me, or the weather, or if something breaks down." Nope, no matter what- my joy is limitless. Happiness is always inside me to withdraw on. It is not from some outside source or condition. So my lovely daughters. We begin another beautiful month with the Power of Three. I am so grateful to have you join me. It gives me such joy! I look forward to being reunited with you this month. But whether together physically or just in hearts- The Power of Three continues on....It is part of the circle of life. PS- I have to give credit to my six 6 year old Great nephew, Andy. When I got in the car at the airport, the day my Dad died. I expressed my sorrow and Andy's little soft voice came from the backseat with a sigh, "It's part of the cirlce of life." Ahh, the wisdom in a child. Shanna's wedding jewerly- the cirlce in the tierra, earrings, necklace, sachet and her ring- a reminder that life continues on with Magnificent Outcomes even beyond the things we intentionally design. God's design for us is truly a circle of love and joy. This is where I pray we continue to spin. Selah.