Intestines n Toenails

I went to a meditation class last night...I'm learning a new form of meditation to add to my 'spirtual toolbag'. The table I have set up in my living room is an alter. I head to it first thing in the morning.....which lately has been 4:45. I light a candle and I wash my hands with rosewater. I look over my monthly vision page. I hold some meaningful stones and I settle into meditating. Today, it seemed so strange, I saw my intestines working up out of my mouth. I thought how bizzare! How gross! I was throwing up my intestines and what still remained I was pulling up out of my throat and mouth. I felt it was rather disturbing, but curious why in the world I was seeing this in my mind's eye. I turned to Louise Hay for reference on intestines.

Intestines
Problem/cause: assimilation. absorption. elimination with ease.
New thought: I easily assimilate and absorb all that I need to know and release the past with joy.

In pondering all this I came to realize what I was 'seeing' was myself purging...eliminating....DETOXING (which is my goal this first quarter of the year)... detox from my past- from emotional garbage that I had been absorbing and not eliminating very successfully. Now I can assimilate, absorb new joy. I feel cleaned out. I took the photos of Doug and of David and placed them under the feet of the elephant that stands on my alter. The elephant represents a remover of obstacles. Interesting thing is the photo with Doug has him standing with a sign that says "Please stay on the trail" and he is holding up his middle finger. He wasn't one to stay within curteous boundaries. David's photo is me and him at music fest and it says "The song remains the same". Ohhh well, he can keep dancing to the same ole tune, but I am changing up my rythym.

Joelle, when I looked up intestines....right there in the "i's" Ingrown toenail caught my eye. Do you know Louise says that means you are struggling with "worry or guilt about your right to move forward!"
new thought pattern" "It is my Divine right to take my own direction in life. I am safe. I am free."
Even if you have a baby to care for...you have a Divine right to not feel guilty or worry about doing what is good for you!!
I told you about when I had surgery on my ingrown toenails.....it was right after I had the weightloss surgery...and yes, I had worry and guilt about my right to move forward. Wow!

All is well in 2012! We are three moving forward without guilt or worry. We are dancing to a new song, staying on the trail that is ment for each of us...and fully absorbing joy and eliminating toxins!
Selah!