Not April Foolin'

Happy 1st day of April....another new beginning. Another fresh start! Gotta love it.
In March I was diligent to focus on my vision page. The main point was "Now with intensity" to lose weight. I exercised diligently. Spent alot of time in mediatation. Often counted my calories. My goal was to make a serious effort to lose weight as much weight as possible. I hardly drank alcohol. I often went out dancing and only drank water. This was an exciting month because for two years I have not been able to get the scales below 204. I started the month at 207 and the drop happened! By middle of March I was 194! I was sooo thrilled. Then scales started to creep back up to 198 though I was still making an effort. Hum...and ouch... I stepped on the scales this morning....204.4. What?! What the @#$%##@#$@%. I feel discouragement trying to overtake me. But I am telling myself that the scales really can't measure my success. It is only weighing the weight of my body not of my soul. My clothes have become baggy. People are complimenting me... "How are you losing weight?" "Are you on crack?" I feel great! I can't let some outward measure determine my joy, my strength, my determination. It is rather silly, I have made so much good progress in March, yet today I feel so sad just because of what the scale says. It's an aweful April fool's joke. Some how I feel like a failure. That I let myself down. Yet, I did do so much right. I was faithful to dedicate an half hour to The Power of Three everyday. Except for one day. Two nights ago I was going to go out dancing, and I went to Sands casino...and feel asleep in the parking lot. I was just too tired to drag myself inside to dance. Generally I am so high energy, but I just needed to go home and sleep.
Okay, so what.....I'm going to keep pressing on. A set back is just a set up to spring forward me into sucess.
At the end of February I kept saying and trying to believe " I have more than enough. I have more than enough to meet my needs." Well, God spoke to my heart. How can you believe that you have more than enough when you dont even believe that you have enough?" Ohhh, so God and I decided to do a little simple object lesson in showing me that not only do I have enough.. I have more than enough. Let's start with my food supply. I almost entirely stayed out of the grocery store for a month. I did buy some fresh fruit and sparlking water couple times (cause yeah- I stopped drinking diet soda). I went through the whole month without buying groceries and my cupboards and freezer are still full as if I never even went through a whole month of eating. I have to say, I am surprised at how much I have. Indeed, I have more than enough. Good object lesson for me. I'm going to continue on in April without buying much groceries. Maybe just yogurt and fresh produce. I want to start emptying out what I have in preparation to move.
I don't know how I will move, I only know that I want to and with God there is a way, because I have More Than Enough money, resources, help, etc. I got all I need!
I have been working on my resume and looking for jobs in Bozeman.
It's been a good month for me...just as the words in my journal page say "Live Powerful. Spectacular. It's not fitness-it's life. Capture the moment. Live in the moment. Make the most of the moment." I have a saying, "I am not regretting the past. I am not fretting the future." It gets me through and reminds me to enjoy this moment. Yes, March was a good month. The scales are NOT going to get me regretting or fretting. Time to turn the page into April....it's all about going from Fat to FAB! My focus words are "Repunctuate Your Life." Yeah. I'm not using periods. NO I'm NOT 204.(PERIOD) no... I like....moving on.... dot dot dots.....203...202...201...200....199....So let's move on....no stop signs, speed limits, no halting punctuations....April here we come..........So Let's dance!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!