April Showers of Love, Peace, Joy

Ahhh one third of the way through the year already! April was a great month of detoxing emotionally and physically. I credit that to meditation. April 19th was my ten anniversary of bariatric surgery, so it was an exciting milestone. I have lost 30 pounds since we last saw each other in January. I'm feeling very good about myself and about life. My vision page for April consisted of "Get Social" because the most happy people have vibrant social lives. I made an effort to get out and mingle, of course that comes rather easy for me. But I am really aiming to mingle with people out of the norm of who I would usually mingle with. I'm making an effort to appreciate other people, with other likes, values and interests. Perhaps by mixing things up, I will become more creative because I have opened my mind a bit more. I have flowers on my vision page- that is a reminder to blossom. It is spring time after all. It's time to bloom. Another quote on my vision page "There is a time to let things happen, and a time to make things happen." I realize April was the month to make things happen. For one, with my Bozeman job search- time to make it happen. I have a great resume put together and have started sending it out. I feel pretty confident about it. Another practice that I have begun is Gratitude in every little thing...every day. I have been doing the excersices in the book 'Magic" by Rhonda Byrne. I have learned the way to manifest good in my life to be appreciative of what I have- and then more will come. Another quote on my page is "I'm more comfortable in my skin now that I've ever been." I have to say I do feel very good about my body because I have learned to be thankful for every little marvelous thing about it. Whether I like the look of a body part or not. I appreciate that my body is here for me. It helps me to get things done. It helps me to do the things I love to do, such as dancing and motorcycle riding. My body is very good to me. I shall be good back to it, by showing gratitude and not taking my body for granted. I have been practicing my mantra- " I consume only food and beverages that contribute to my health and well-being." More and more I am moving in that healthy direction. Which is taking me from "Fat to Fab" as quoted on my page. "This year I am reinventing myself". Invent per dictionary.com means: -to originate or create as a product of one's own ingenuity, experimentation, or contrivance. -to produce or create with the imagination: create and invention seem to have the same meaning. Invention seems to imply more experimentation with it. Life is an experiment- of good tries and some times bad choices- but it's all part of the learning curve. I used this month to ponder my mistakes and find some sort of blessing even my mistakes. -If one let's oneself count blessings in mistakes- they are there. It helped mt to lift the burden of guilt and shame. Which I needed detoxed from and feel I have made progress there. After all, quoted on my page is "LET GO OF THE PAST." Wow, these vision pages where so intuitive,so prophetic. THE ART OF INDEPENDENCE. Simply stated, I have learned that I'm okay being alone. As Kelly Clarkston sings, "Doesn't mean I'm lonely cause I'm alone." I've come along way of learning the art of indepedence- much further than I expected I could go. REPUNCTUATE YOUR LIFE is another quote that I have had great fun with. I write and play with punctuation. It helps me to view words- and things differently. I have a butterfly on my vision page. This month I feel I have went through a metamorphisis. I"m ready to fly. Something in the word 'transformer' keeps resognating in me. I looked that up today and it also means to metamorph. transform: to change in form, appearance, or structure; metamorphose. But even more so, in electrical terms -which get way over my head- a transformer deals with changing negative and positive charges. I have worked on being positive and changing negative thoughts into positive. It helps me to see myself grounded (electricty needs to be grounded to be useful- I think since I hear that term- "grounding" with electrical terms) Anyway, I see myself grounded into the earth. My feet growing down like roots into the earth and wrapping around all the important energy of gems and stones that will enhance my life. I see myself as 'the middle man' (like a transformer box that you see on electric poles) that is tranforming power between the heavens and earth. I see the strength of the earth pulling up through me, channeling through me up to the sky. Thus I have admiration for the sun, moon and stars. The light in those celestial planets shine down through me channeling back into the earth. Back and forth is goes- through me like a transformer.....transforming me. Kinda deep stuff, but there some sort of mediative power in it that is doing me some good.. A lot of good changes, transformation this month. Last but not least a quote on my April page "I'm not done yet." Selah.