Ride with no regrets

It's never too late to be what you might have been.  I'm not sure what I might 'have been' or what I am suppose to be.  I know that I focus on my bedroom  wall that states "Life is not about finding yourself.  It's about creating yourself."  and I ask  "God what are you and I going to create today? "

My intention, as I stated at the introduction of this Power of Three blog,  is to be the best I can be (or at least better than I have ever been) spiritually, emotional, physically, mentally, emotionally by the time I turn 50.
I have this stirring in me that I should be bold and ride my bike out to Montana.  This morning I sense that there is a reason that I haven't been hired for a new job in Montana just yet.  Perhaps I need to make a soul journey on my bike as I sojourn to the West.
I have been pondering the idea.... the pros and cons.....the precautions...and went to bed praying what would be the right thing for me.  I  woke with this in my heart; to do it and write as I go.
I'm reading the book "Wild" by Cheryl Strayer.  She legally renamed herself Strayer because when she got a divorce she could change her name. She had strayed from her husband so she went with Strayer.  Strayer travels with a big backpack across the Pacific Coast Trail. A woman alone on a path to find herself as she walks  away from past hurts.  The subtitle is From Lost to Found on the Pacific Coast Trail.  I don't feel lost.  I'm right here, in Pennsylvania.  Determining to not regret the past and not fret the future. Finding is to dig, to search... to find what you once had but don't know where it is placed now.  That's not what I feel the need to do or be.  I feel the need to create myself.  Who I want to be for this chapter in my life when  I turn 50.  Perhaps with 2100 plus miles to  ride with wind in my hair, I will create her.
As I write this, the course in Gavin Degraw's song, "I don't wanna be" came to me.

I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me



As I ponder riding my bike out west  and I run the idea past people.  I've got a few "go for it" and I've gotten "You're crazy!".  Yesterday I stumbled... haha "stumbled"- isn't it interesting how we stumble across things when we need to find something that we weren't looking for at the moment?   I stumbled across a website  Purposefairy.com .   There is a research article that states most elderly people don't regret things that they did.  They regret what they didn't do.  They regret that they didn't have the courage to do a certain thing. Riding this bike out there will take courage...boldness...'balls'.  When I learned to ride, my teacher, Greg said to me, "The only thing is takes to ride a motorcycle is balls.  And you have them."
Hummm... maybe I don't even need to create.. Not struggle with it anyway. Just be.  Just be who I been trying to be lately.  Which is a peace-filled, loving, finding gratitude-in-everything kind of person. 
Just think of me and have peace of mind.  Just think of me riding my bike to a new direction in my life.
Lynne gave me a plaque:  Change of any sort takes courage.  This is change.  Riding there is the epidomy of doing it courageously.
   Here is to  creating the next chapter.  Here is to jumping on my bike and boldly going where I have never gone before.  Here is to a life without regrets.
Last time I traveled to Montana and I was in the Denver airport killing time....  I don't like the sounds of that "killing time".  That phrase needs to go away.  Anyway, I was in the airport making use of my waiting time....doing it an a manner that a female does best- shopping.  I came across a certain brand of  necklace with a pendant that had a thoughtful comment on it.  I loved every one of those necklaces and I wanted to buy them all. Of course, in counting the cost I couldn't splurge like that. So I took a moment and ask, "Which one speaks to me the most?" and when I put a certain pendant in my hand, instantly my eyes started to tear up and my heart felt overwhelmed with its message.  Wow...I really responded to this pendant.
  The pendant says, "Live life with no regrets."
Live to ride.  Ride to Live.
 I will ride with no regret!
Selah.